i was so happy to get off the shore for the weekend. i needed to get away, i had so much fun in Norfolk with a friend. Quenna is such a great person IMO, glad i finally got a ticket to see her, after all the delays and what not. the tropical storms didnt help matters on getting to Norfolk to see her. We ended up going to the Wave with what i consider a good friend, Bobby. It was nice to see him, i think he has done quite well with himself, and i noticed he lost some weight. Ya i want to go to norfolk once a month to see her and some friends, go to a club, and shop. It was cheap to take the greyhound only 53 bucks and in the same amount of time also , also got 15% off my next ticket. I really didnt want to leave norfolk because i miss it, the time with Quenna was very memoriable and i was glad that also another friend joined us at the Wave (bobby). Im such a puss i guess, ended up watching the moon on the way home, listened to BlutEngel - Ice Angel, I ended up crying because i didnt want to come home. I really miss it so much and i didnt want to leave Quenna. I ended up falling asleep on the bus and only getting 5 hrs sleep last night. well i need a good nite rest. I ended up wearing out Quenna too, im so hyper i wear people out
I close my eyes Wish to sleep At night my dear, you look so sweet Ice Angel, why are you so cold?
Ice Angel, it doesn't matter what you said to me I feel the coldness of your I see the frozen light inside your face
One day, my love, it breaks my heart And I will not return, not return to you, my love Not return to all this pain, not return to all your love And after all I know, only my heart will live on
If someone cries for you, it doesn't matter what you do (It doesn't matter what I do) If someone cries for you, and every lie comes back to you (Every lie comes back to me) It's a parting with this moment, kiss your eyes with crystal lips (Kiss my eyes with crystal lips) I see the darkness inside your heart, there's no place for me to be (There's no place for you to be)
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What is Dagorhir?
Dagorhir members make costumes, armor, and (safe) weapons for use in Dagorhir events. Dagorhir inspires historical research. Our members learn knowledge of arts and crafts as they build and create accessories to help them more fully enjoy the game. Members interact improvisationally with characters they develop and portray in a historic/fantasy setting.
Dagorhir is also a healthy outlet for aggression and frustration. Though Dagorhir is hard-hitting and physical, there is an emphasis is on safety. Dagorhir "weapons" are well padded to prevent injuries. Dagorhirs combat rules outline safe conduct for all of our members, and these rules are strictly enforced by the "Heralds" (referees). Within the rules, combatants may slam, wrestle, and even "kill" their opponents. In our civilized age this "weekend warfare" is a gratifying relief from the stresses and anxieties of everyday life.
So Tuesday night... me and 2 friends decide to drive out to Norfolk. The both wanted to go to DoomGloom at The Wave, so we went. I really needed to get out after my mother passing and one of my close Co-workers at Fresh Pride also died. My friends and I ended up at Casablanca Cafe (about 9pm) and they enjoyed it, I miss Hampton Roads area, there i meant some friends i have missed. Chris, Bobby, and Will was at the Cafe then Will followed us up to DoomGloom about 10am. Over all it was a Nice trip.. We got at my place about 5am. I had to be at work at 7am at Fresh Pride, all the tag work for our specials and weekly add. I ended up home about 3:30pm and ended up falling asleep in the living room and just got up at 2am. Meant some new people at DoomGloom, even tho i dont live in Norfolk anymore... Right now i need a shower and at least another 2 hrs sleep, it so hard to travel a total 4 hrs just to find a place were goths and dancing are. in some ways i wish i didnt take this promotion at Fresh Pride, because of the work hours... pretty much 6:30am-3pm Monday-Friday, weekends off and all the goth nights i want to go to are during the week. and the closest one is 2 hrs away. Overall, its been a last few days, had a close friend die Monday Night, meant some old and new friends, danced at the Wave, got some coffee at Casablanca cafe, and I miss it all. i feel like a caged animal over on the shore, music plays a big role for me and not finding a club/bar around here that plays what i like makes me pissed off. I need a shower
so occassionally i write these notes in my cellphone, mostly unrelated crap that strikes me at certain moments. so ill post em with just a date and just no time.
7/3/6 its good to know that im not attractive... something to know that i cant get a women to save my ass (is it like going after something unobtainable, unsurmountable, or untouchable i guess... stop looking of those around you, just wait for the right moment i guess)
7/8/6 I figured this isnt my crowd
7/8/6 am i incapable of fun? just find the right people
oh also a friend told me that i have this kind of motherly voice, intresting, its like the tone of my voice. i need to pay attention to it, like when giving out directions, ranting, and i guess it my because i have conviction in my voice?
my mother passed on Thursday the 29th of June.. Throat Cancer... stop breathing in her sleep... now in ICU at Shore Memorial.. The most caring and loving person i ever knew... I will truly miss her..
Mary Hicks 1959-2006 47 yrs old
Her and My father's Song:
Matchbox 20 - 3 AM She says it's cold outside and she hands me my raincoat She's always worried about things like that She says it's all gonna end and it might as well be my fault And she only sleeps when it's raining And she screams and her voice is straining
(Chorus) She says Baby It's 3 am I must be lonely When she says Baby Well I can't help but be scared of it all sometimes Says the rain's gonna wash away I believe it
She's got a little bit of something, God it's better than nothing And in her color portrait world she believes that she's got it all She swears the moon don't hang quite as high as it used to And she only sleeps when it's raining And she screams and her voice is straining (Chorus)
She believes that life is made up of all that you're used to And the clock on the wall has been stuck at three for days, and days She thinks that happiness is a mat that sits on her doorway But outside, it's stopped raining (Chorus)
I don't know if im socialible anymore. Seems no one is intrested in me, well women anyways. Sometimes I wish i were a women because it would be all the people coming to me. I'm shy and its hard for me to talk to any women. I don't know why, someone is meant for me. i don't know if its a girl or heaven forbid a guy. just that i know there is something out there for me. Maybe, I am suppose to be alone, incompatable with humanity or people in general. I know that I'm a goth but at times i wish i weren't. I've always had this dark side to me. I've always been drawn to the dark and the emptiness. I know that i cant change my personality so easy. Wishing i was more open, unlike the clam i am today.